While hammering, and plying some tank parts today, I realise that I wanted to blog tonight. I started to think of what to blog, and I got nothing. But I know I wanted to blog.
I remember those days when I use to blog like the freaggin straits times back in blogger. (ps. the blogs still exist) Now tumblr has made blogging a pasting or reblogging of what others have put up on the internet. While that is kind of cool and new age, I think blogging has turned from a self-reflection space, into a forum of spammed imagery/ideas. I guess it leaves less space to reflect, think and feel.Its not BAD, but I have moved away from it.
Anyway, I have found something to blog about.
Have you guys ever felt like you’ve never been quite enough?
Kind of like Rom 3:23
You’re never quite THE son. Never quite the friend. Never quite the musician. Never quite the cell leader. Never quite the elder brother. Never quite the song writer. Never quite the soldier. Never quite what people thought you out to be. Never quite what you thought yourself out to be. Never quite the giver. Never quite the Christian. Never quite the sportsman. Never quite the artist. Never quite the speaker. Never nearly as cool you think you are. Never as awesome as you would like to be. Almost never really quite anything.
I fight this battle everyday, and I guess all of us do. We try to be the best we can get out of ourselves, and try to meet a mark that someone else has put on us. attempt to wear the status people throw at us, and try to meet that expectation.
I dare not even type anything else because I cannot end this post with an answer. I also don’t want to just give a textbook answer and bluff myself that I’ve got it. I’d say God, and I know it probably is. But once again, this is my post. I don’t want to reblog a fun idea, or a scenic picture.
Perhaps, meeting the mark, is the pursuit of meeting the mark. Or not?
